I need to remember that it is a journey and I want to enjoy my journey to health. Since I weigh every day, the scale wasn't kind this morning it was 241.2 - yesterday I was at 240.2 and thought I was well on my back down to my low last week of 239.8 but I wasn't. Yesterday I didn't exercise so of course I thought that had to be it. So today, not just because of that I went running. I ran 4 miles. I didn't have that hard of a time but for some reason I was slower than I have been lately. But I did it. Then I felt like going to jazzercise since my favorite instructor teaches on Thursday night. So I went to jazzercise and boy am I sore tonight. But a good sore. When I was running, the song below came on my iphone. I am not a fan of Miley Cyrus but I do like this song. It is called "The Climb" and it reminded me that I want to enjoy the journey.
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
Some of the things that have been great about the journey is how many good lifelong friends I have made. I am doing Weight Watchers but that isn't where I met my friends. I met my new friends on a internet message board called http://www.dwlz.com/ but most of us know it as Dotti's. I have ran a 5K and a 10K with these friends, I have vacationed on a lake a few times, I have traveled to a yearly event three times that we call the "Amish Luau", other dinner meetups, and chats online. We post daily on the board about our struggles, our triumphs, our questions, and our daily activities. We post more than about weight loss; we post about life.
Other things I have learned is that I am stronger than I thought. I can run a 5K and even a 10K. I can change from drinking regular cokes to diet cokes to water. I can give up candy and ice cream. Having a hard time with cookies though :) I am learning more about myself every day and loving it!
Enjoy your journey!!